Kevin Smith calls Carrie Fisher his ‘first love’ in heartfelt Instagram tribute

Director Kevin Smith and actress Carrie Fisher Ethan Miller/Getty Images, Dimitrios Kambouris/Getty Images

The world was instantly shaken when news broke about the death of beloved actress Carrie Fisher on Tuesday at age 60. Many celebrities took to social media to express their sympathy toward the loss of a Hollywood icon, but one New Jersey filmmaker in particular took it extremely hard. Red Bank native and Star Wars enthusiast Kevin Smith shared a heartfelt tribute to Carrie, revealing how she stole his heart at a young age.

The loving message was accompanied by an awesome photo of Kevin, Carrie and Jay Mews posing together on a throne while on the set of Spoilers. Kevin reflected on his admiration for her, revealing it only took him one time to see Carrie portraying Princess Leia Organa in the popular sci-fi film series for his childhood obsession to begin.

“The Princess stole my heart at age 7,” Kevin wrote on Instagram. “Anybody who knows me knows #CarrieFisher was my first love. I thrilled to the adventures of #princessleia in the @starwars movies, but from ’77 to ’84, I was in love with Carrie Fisher herself. My bedroom was filled with Carrie Fisher pictures from any movie she was ever in (including Polaroids I took off the TV when #thebluesbrothers hit cable).”

Kevin’s love for Carrie grew so deep, he even remembers getting really jealous when she began dating musician Paul Simon. According to the New York Daily News, the couple was involved in a turbulent relationship for nearly twelve years, which including a short marriage that ultimately ended in divorce after a year. Kevin refused to listen Paul’s music until their relationship ended.

The father of one will always remember her unique sense of humor and sharp wit. Although his dreams of marrying Carrie never came true, Kevin felt honored to have the opportunity  to call her a friend, witnessing her true spirit in action.

“In childhood, I committed myself to Carrie Fisher without ever meeting her the way novice Nuns commit themselves to Christ without meeting Him,” Kevin added. “Decades later, I got to tell her this when Carrie Fisher and Jay Mewes were in a station wagon on the set of Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. She was gracious about hearing it for the zillionth time from the zillionth man or woman who grew up idolizing her, but wickedly added, ‘I’m glad to know I helped you find your light saber.’ And with that, she stopped being Carrie Fisher to me and just became Carrie.”

Check out his full message below:

The Princess stole my heart at age 7. Anybody who knows me knows #CarrieFisher was my first love. I thrilled to the adventures of #princessleia in the @starwars movies, but from '77 to '84, I was in love with Carrie Fisher herself. My bedroom was filled with Carrie Fisher pictures from any movie she was ever in (including Polaroids I took off the TV when #thebluesbrothers hit cable). I was jealous of Paul Simon when he was dating Carrie Fisher and wouldn't listen to his music until they split up. I paid to see Carrie Fisher and #chevychase in Under the Rainbow nine times when it was in theaters (mostly because Carrie Fisher was in underwear in one scene). In childhood, I committed myself to Carrie Fisher without ever meeting her the way novice Nuns commit themselves to Christ without meeting Him. Decades later, I got to tell her this when Carrie Fisher and @jaymewes were in a station wagon on the set of #jayandsilentbobstrikeback. She was gracious about hearing it for the zillionth time from the zillionth man or woman who grew up idolizing her, but wickedly added "I'm glad to know I helped you find your light saber." And with that, she stopped being Carrie Fisher to me and just became Carrie. That's the Carrie I'll always remember: the dutiful standard-bearer of childhood dreams with a the wicked sense of humor and a way with words. She didn't want to get paid for her role in @jayandsilentbob Strike Back; instead, she asked that we buy her these antique beaver chairs. Her reason: "Beaver seems an appropriate currency for this movie." When she was a guest on Season 1 of our @hulu show #Spoilers, Carrie curled up in the throne like she belonged there. And she did: after all, she was royalty. As a boy, I dreamed of marrying Carrie Fisher. As a young filmmaker, I dreamed of casting Carrie Fisher. As an adult, I dreamed of being as sharp-witted and prepossessed as Carrie Fisher. And now that Carrie Fisher is gone, I'll dream of my friend Carrie – whose entire magnificent career I was lucky enough to witness, whose honesty made me a better person, and whose spirit – like The Force – will be with us always. Goodnight, Sweet Princess…

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